Archive for the ‘Reflection’ Category

Lightning Bugs

I love watching lightning bugs. I don’t know why. Maybe because they signify a very specific part of summer. Late, hot summer. And they are only out right before dusk. They evoke a sense of magic, of wonder, that feeling from your childhood that summer is special and should be savored. 

Complete exhaustion

Most days recently, when I get to the end of the day, I collapse in a state of exhaustion. It’s not a bad thing. It means I’ve spent all my energy for the day and I have nothing more to give. Usually, it means I had an incredible day. 

The most energy-drain comes from being home. Work can be a lot easier mentally than being home, but I love being home. The kids are awesome to watch and play with. I just need to remember that when I’m completely spent, I can get short with them. The five second time has helped me not react in anger per my initial impulse.

Running felt easy

I ran a really fast loop around the neighborhood yesterday, about 1 mile. I only went that far because the family needed me back and I wanted to get a short workout in. What surprised me is that I ran it in the fastest time I ever had before (7:40), and it felt easy. I probably could’ve gone faster.

This feels good because it means I’m building up my aerobic base. I want to keep it up and maybe do an easy 30-40 minutes of running more often.

I have adjusted my personal target of a 24 minute 5K to 22 minutes. This will be a stretch goal, but I have a few months to get into shape for it.

Don’t wish away the year

I have to remind myself not to look forward too much to future events. Right now, my kids are young and sweet and a little frustrating at times, but I’m in the period that so many people look back on and miss greatly. They miss the time when their kids were small and relatively innocent and things seemed simpler, even though they don’t feel simple at the moment.

Changing the world

What actually constitutes as changing the world? There’s got to be some line in the sand, right? I mean, painting your house red is technically changing the world, right? What criteria or measurement do you consider to say you’ve changed the world?

I think to count, you must have affected the lives of a critical mass of people. They don’t need to know they’ve been affected – plenty of people don’t have polio and have never and will never thank Jonas Salk for that.

After 50-100 years, one family of four can lead to be hundreds of people, so wouldn’t that be a critical mass of people?

I think this means that if you can positively affect change for one family and help ensure that the change has lasting effects over the next 50-100 years, you can say you’ve changed the world. Is that too far? I don’t think so. It sounds reasonable.  Read On…

Pretend

Sully loves to pretend. He gets on my back and pretends I’m a car and drives me to the grocery store to get groceries. He gets out at the store, shops and then gets back in and drives home. He gets out at home and then presents me with all of his purchases. It’s awesome.

One thing I learned from a parenting book recently is that kids don’t pretend for the sake of pretending. They are mimicking what we do. They are doing what we do, as closely as they can. They aren’t pretending for the sake of pretending.  Read On…

Choose How You Feel

Last night, we were up late at a concert about 1 hr away, so we missed out on at least 4 hours of sleep we would normally get. I remember the words from The Miracle Morning by Hal Elrod and Flip the Gratitude Switch by Kevin Clayson that when you wake up, you set your own mood.

If you wake up after 3 hours of sleep with kids waking you up, you can choose to say to yourself, “that was the perfect amount of sleep and I feel 100% ready to start my day” or you can say “ugh I feel terrible – today is going to be terrible, I should just call in.”

This isn’t new age BS. If you actually say these words to yourself, you manifest a better attitude which affects how you feel. It’s hard to overcome, but it’s effective if you avoid saying the negative and try starting with something positive. Read On…

Morning Meditation

I lost track of my morning time, following the move. Our kids in their new rooms, waking up at different times, with new needs and feeding times are all things I tried blaming for missing my morning time to sit and think. But it’s all on me. I needed to make the choice to dedicate time to myself in the morning – no one else is to blame.

In the time that I was not sitting in the morning, I added some weight, got stressed out and I felt noticeably worse. Since starting back up, I have run 5x more than I was before, I feel better and I can think more clearly throughout the day.

 

Amazing Mother’s Day

What a gorgeous day. We started off the day by driving two mice out to a farm to be dropped off. We made a delicious brunch for my mom and dad. They stayed for awhile and walked with us around the block.

I took the kids for a long bike ride so they could nap and Jess could nap too. Then I picked up Jess and then continued our ride together.

We went to the park after dinner and saw friends and stayed there for awhile. The weather was perfect. 

Sully and I worked out in the garage and​then he insisted on one last bike ride before bed, because we didn’t want the day to end.